It feels so great to be back on the blogging scene. It's exactly 3 months since I blogged. Yeah, it does itch me to be restricted to reading blogs only, and at often times, unable to share many of my wild thoughts with everyone out there. Now that I've regained my precious time and freedom, I can blog for all I like!
These last 2 weeks are probably one of the hardest I've experienced. As the title suggests, I came under tremendous pressure; from exams, from family, from peers. I'm just glad everything is over now and am now savouring every second of my 3 month holidays.
Studying became a very tough thing to do then. Many at times, my perserverence was put to the test, and now I'm proud to say that I passed every single of these tests. Those hours of torrid mugging are now history, but I do really hope they will serve me well in my future studies. I just wish to forget the times that I couped myself in the room and forced myself to memorise facts. Moreover, sometimes it is a few subjects at one go. Coupled with anxiety and fear, I just felt like I'm cracking under these pressure.
If u think exam stress is bad enough, there are more. Family problems and peer pressure. I'm not cursing my luck but I choose to believe that it is an obstacle that God laid out for me. I took up His challenge and took it in my stride too. When sometimes the pressure was so overwhelming, I simply broke down. Those moments were unbearable- I thought that my heart shattered to pieces. However, I managed to pick back every single piece of it after that. I shan't go into detail what my problems are cause they are rather personal.
The moment on the evening of the 18th was a unforgettable one. I can recall how badly I wanted to finish my papers. From the history paper in the morning to the chemistry papers in the afternoon. When Mr Lim announced the end of the exams, everyone cheered loudly. I felt like as if a torrent of euphoria struck me- it was FINALLY OVER. The exams we had prepared for 4 years was over. What was funny was that I struggled to make myself to believe it. There was it- the door to 3 months of freedom was opened.
Now, I just have SO MUCH time that I dunno what to do too. Let me share with you what I did for these few days.
Friday night- Found a suitable skin for this blog.
Saturday- Soccer in the morning, shopping in the aftertoon. I spent $60 at one go. Though it seems a little to some of you, you have to earn $60 yourself to learn how to cherish it. So, please don't be a spendthrift and spend your parents' fortune. I hope to work in the coming months and earn money for myself. It is an important to being independent and finally you can earn for the stuffs you buy.
Sunday- Church in the morning and home for the rest of the day. It was great to be back in church. However I can't stay long having to accompany my younger cousins who stayed at my home. Meanwhile, my older cousin told me JJ Lin visited his gameshop in Funan Digitalife Mall. If only I could be there...
Monday- Soccer in the morning. We played from 10am to 2pm. The weather wasn't friendly cause it rained. But the slippery surface is quite fun to play on. I bruised my leg and hurted myself- thanks to goalkeeping duties. Although I do have a flair for goalkeeping, u try diving on hard ground and being hit by really hard balls. Anymore of these I'm afraid I may hurt myself badly. i don't to blast at anyone here but I'm just disgusted by selfish behaviors. People just care about themselves playing outfield because they think they are great. So weaker players like me have to sacrifice myself for a mundane goalkeeping role. How do I improve when I'm just given a few minutes and they have hours? I got myself injured each time and my outfield playing ability undermined. This ain't gonna deter my passion for soccer, I'm just accustomed to this selfish and uncaring world.
Now- I just started re-reading Harry Potter & The Goblet Of Fire, lol, in order to watch the movie. I have not even started reading The Half-Blood Prince! I've got all the time in the world now =).
Tommorow- I'm going over to JB to get my hair done and buy some stuffs. Its been a while since I got out of this country too.
Wednesday- I'm just excited about our Graduation Tea at Grand Hyatt hotel. I'm sure everyone's gonna look just gorgeous on that day. Moreover, I will be glad if my maiden work- our class video will be shown! Alright, stay cool and enjoy your holidays everyone!
