sometimes, i just wonder my existance on this world
the scars of a painful childhood haunts me up till today, and doing badly in secondary sch... I'm not a good looking guy, neither did i do well for my exams, i do not have many (or no)achievements to date... i often look at others enviously, and wonder if only i could be like them
however i'm a fighter, i would never concede defeat and raise the white flag. rather than leaving my life in turmoil, i turn to Him. It has not been an easy task making this decision. afterall, i was not born in a christian family. i doubt anyone in my family would agree to my conversion. i beg to differ. i think i'm old enough to choose my religion. i was lost and disillusioned. God took me in under His care. His glory, His righteouness, His love inspired me in awe. I need this religion and faith badly.
i believe my decision will mean a change for the better for my life. I want to be under His guidance for the rest of my life. I want my life to be meaningful, I dun want to live in the shadows anymore.
its just 2 months to prelims, im already exhuasted and fatigued... i believe i will find strength from His teachings to perservere and i will see light at the end of the day. Whatever it takes, im gonna fight for my chance to NJC next year. Mr Kamal just gave us a pep talk yesterday which came at just the right time. I can vividly remember the first lesson we had with him, "The A1s are already in your pockets, its up to you whether you can keep it" and he also showed us the top JCs in spore. yeah, he is the Polys' no. 1 enemy. My dream is to take Mr Kamal's path, not bcuz of him but my interest. I hope to take history in JC, den pursue history and political science in University. Be a politician? I doubt so.
tmr's listening compre and i've yet to dig my ears... The end of week 3 is approaching... Stop slacking now! I've planned to revise several chapters this week and to get some precious sleep... Dark rings are forming under my eyes, pimples are so annoying! Moreover, its so cold and chilling in our classroom... On monday, there was even condensation on the windows! i reckon this is good preparation for us to live in temperate countries.
ericsoraus still owes me "reparations", dont worry. I wouldnt coerce you into signing an unfair treaty. Hes been out of cash since playing pool i think haha...
" Lord God, thank you taking me under Your guidance. I want to turn from my way of life and follow Jesus. I invite Jesus into my heart as the Lord of my life. Thank you, Father, for giving me new life in the name of Jesus. Amen!"
